I don’t know…

… I really don’t know anymore… T__T

Sometimes, I think I’m bad for thinking this way, but somehow, the guilt just seems to creep up on me… I wonder if I’m just feeling self-righteous or I’m being a chicken… Somehow, both apply to me atm… >< Or I’m insanely jealous… I hate myself for it but I just can’t help it… Maybe it’ll be better if I just stopped caring altogether… 

And LOL! I wrote an entry exactly one year ago today… Ahahahaha! /random

I need…

… an exercise in writing… >< Seriously, it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything… I have 4 blogs, and nothing is in them… Or at least, it looks like they’ve been abandoned… T__T I think I just might revive this one for this purpose… I hope to be able to write something, anything really… I’ll try (and hopefully succeed) in writing at least once a week… Maybe? ^^ Here’s hoping to this endeavor… I need to get this lazy bug off my back… ^^;;;

O hai thar!

It’s been a while~ I wish I could say that there’s been some major changes that have happened since my last post, but alas, there is none… I was hoping I could write something happy today as well, but with news that we have to stay late tonight, I don’t think that’s possible… >< *sigh*

Anyway… I’m thinking of other things to write, so till then… *waves*

Life… ><

I seriously don’t know how much I can take anymore… I need a change… Badly… >< Work is starting to take its toll on me… I’m starting to hate it more and more as the days go by… It may just be a phase but I really don’t feel like coming back here anymore… I feel like going to work is becoming more and more of a pain… ⌐_⌐ The new project is… iunno… I just want to get out of here… *sigh* This could not be good for my health… 

Nostalgia…

So, yesterday, I found out that the UPCAT results are out already… Wow! I can’t believe that it’s already been 10 years since I got the news that I passed the UPCAT… ^^ I remember how as well… I was at home, around the same time of year as now, when I got a phone call from a classmate… She asked me what my middle name was… When I gave it to her, she said I passed… :O Apparently, one of our sempais from highschool goes to UPLB… She checked the list and saw my name… I guess she just wasn’t sure of my middle name… ^^;; After the call, my mom who was passing by (or eavesdropping, I’m not really sure) asked what that was all about… I told her somebody just saw my name as one of the passers of UPCAT… She was so happy… And so was I… We were jumping about… LOLOL! Then the newspaper published the names of the passers, and sure enough, I was there! Woot! That was way before we had internet… Ahahahahaha!

Ah, now I miss college… I loved my college days, even more than my highschool ones, I must admit… Sure, it’s tougher but it was fun! *sigh*

Anyway… Sa mga bagong Iskolar ng Bayan, maligayang pagbati sa pagpasok sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas! 

I need to…

… take a good long hard look at life… Srsly… OTL

Why, hello there…

It’s been a while… LOL! Nothing much to post actually… Just dropping by remind me that I’m still alive…

Ahahaha! So there…

Bye-bee~

Huh…

Some random babbling… Pardon me if I wander from topic to topic… m(_ _)m T_T

So… We have an internal audit tomorrow… I may have to get rid of my mp3s… I don’t mind…  I just dunno how to restore them after, since external HDDs and USBs are not allowed inside… My ofcmate gave me an idea… And I hope it works… I will give it a try… >:D /evil mode I get nervous on audits… I dunno, even f I’m not the one they’re talking to, I still feel… uneasy around auditors… @_@I guess I don’t want to hear the results after the audits or something… *shrugs*

My seatmate moved to another floor now… @_@ Now I have to go down to fetch her when we go to lunch… LOL!

It’s Monday… Not my favorite day of the week, I’m afraid… >_< And time seems awfully slow on a Monday… Le torture… >_>

Still hunting… But still no luck… ;_; More vigilance! *waves fist in air* Guh, srsly, I have no motivation whatsoever… This is killing me… Not literally of course… Buut it might as well… *sigh*

Watched Transformers 2 last Saturday with friends… Definitely a guy movie… *nods* Then proceeded to get wasted till the wee hours of the morning… You know you’ve had one too many drinks when you laugh uncontrollably for no reason at all… @__@ LOL! But still, it was great fun! Been a while since we’ve seen each other after all… Till the next one then… d^__^b

Also watched 2 jmovies last night… Okuribito made me cry… Like whoa! ;_; Lots of tissues and sniffiling were involved… But I loved it… It’s not the depressing kind of sad… I can’t describe it… But it was good, IMHO… Next time I watch it, I’ll be more prepared… Wahahaha! The next movie I saw was Taiikukan Baby… I watched it for Channaka… That’s all… Ahihihi! I’ll be watching Niji no Megami next… Hehehe… Thanks recluse! it’s been a while since I’ve seen a jmovie… I’m thinking of going to Eigasai this year… Hmmm…

July is upon us… What?! Already?! Half the year has gone by already! Where did the rest of my months go?! Life is passing by, and I’m not even there to witness it… That’s so… sad…

What else? Is there no happy entry? Geez… >_< I guess all I ever do is rant and be grumpy and be whiny… I must do something about that… Urk!

I just had to put this in… LOL!

LOL! LOL!

I absolutely love Dilbert… Hehehe… I can sort of relate, since he’s an engineer and I work in IT… The situations he’s in are hilarious… And he has the wackiest (and nuttiest) officemates… And his boss… LOL! ^___^ They’re made of so much win… Ahahahah!

Yaaaah!

Nagsasawa na ko sa itsura ng XML… @_@ Masakit sa ulo ha… >_<

Oh Dilbert…

Maybe I need way more coffee in my system…

Well…

… there are a lot of unhappy campers in the office now… @_@

I’m one of those unhappy campers but for a different reason… Why oh why do they do this all the freaking time?! >_< I want to cry… 

Oh my…

So… There’s this new policy in the office… We can’t bring in laptops (not issued by the office), USB, external HDs, cameras, even mp3 players in the office… We have to leave it with the guards… Unless you have proper permission from the higher-ups… >_> I just think it’s a bit of a hassle… There was a line earlier before I was able to get into the office… T_T It’s not like I can’t bring my mp3 player everyday… I’d go nuts on the road… >_< I asked the guard if phones are allowed inside, and he said yes, so yay… LOL! It feels strange though, not having my mp3 player here… @_@ I can sort of understand why they wouldn’t allow the HDs and USBs, but the mp3 player is >_>… I know it can be used as an external storage media, but srsly, what info would you be saving there anyway? Well, my mp3 player only contains music and pictures… And a few useless docs (I think)… But that’s just me… Wahahahah! Anyway, if that’s the office policy, then there’s not much I can do about that… Good thing I have sounds in my desktop… So, I’ll live…

What else? Our network gets so screwed sometimes… Well, most of the time… Sometimes it’s slow, sometimes it’s ok… We get disconnected a lot too… >_> This happens mostly during the afternoon… What’s up with that?!

*sigh*

Woohoo?

It’s the last day of the work week today… Woohoo… Independence Day tomorrow, so no work… Yay! I’m feeling awfully sleepy today… *yawn* Still have to edit scripts…

And it’s cold again here~ Waaaii!

Is it…

… always a good thing to be comfortable where you are? Or do you need to get out of your shell once in a while? Hmmm…

On other things, my head is starting to hurt… Again… I was fine a while ago, but now it’s back… It’s not overly painful, but still, it is annoying… >_<  I wonder if it has anything to do with my eyes… @_@ It would seem that my left eye/side of the head hurts more than its right counterpart… Huh… T_T

*sigh*  I wanna go home… I feel… useless… >_<

And… I’m reviving my love for Do As Infinity… <3 Yeah! Stand up for your life… *nods*

This is utterly random… I dunno what I’m doing anymore… >_>

EDIT: Yay! I feel better now… I hope this lasts… ^^;;

Weh?!

Parang gusto ko tuloy mag-travel… Pumunta kung saan-saan… Kaya lang… Time and money constraints… Geh! Mwahahahaha! 

Wala lang, naisip ko lang… Hehehe… Pag nakakakita kasi ako ng pics ng places not from here, parang gusto ko din puntahan yung mga lugar na yun… *shrugs*

Yun lang… Why do I feel so… blah? >_<

>_>

I get the feeling I will not like this day… Huh, go figure… >_<

Lord, please make it to be the end of June already… Please? Please? Thanks! T_T

I’m hungry… 

And…

… I just remembered… I FINISHED THE GRAVEYARD BOOK already! Yay me! I loved it to bits~! ^____^ It gave me a sense of satisfaction or something after reading… I dunno, somehow I felt inspired (?) and hopeful… Also, it did not freak me out, even though it had ghosts and ghouls and witches and Jacks… LOL! Unlike Coraline (just a bit though)… Other mother~ @____@

Anyhoo… That’s all… I’m just happy to have finished it, is all… ^_____________^

When it comes down…

… to a battle between sleeping and eating, sleeping would win, hands down… LOL! I’m sleepy right now, so… I’ll prolly eat later… After my friend’s meeting…

The weather is nuts… One minute it’s raining, the next it’s not… Geez…

Ooooh… I smell coffee… Smells good… Smells REALLY good… >_________>

Work ranting under the cut… To save your brain from any excessive whining that you haven’t heard of before…

(more…)

What do you do…

… when you’ve lost all motivation to do something? When you seem to take everything for granted? When nothing seems to make sense anymore? What then? @__@